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Chapter 8: Sunrise sunset

I watched the sun rise from the ocean that surrounded our castle. I overheard mother and Ira talking about an emergency meeting last night in the main hall. I wonder if this has to do with the accident that happened at the gathering. I was so worried that I couldn’t sleep last night, not that I needed it but it maintained a rhythm in our lives. And I liked the experience of having dreams. But this time my thoughts kept me occupied. An unsettling feeling in my stomach wouldn’t go away ever since we came back from Lord Rahziel’s dimension. A disturbance was happening,  some kind of shift and I really hope it will go back to normal soon. But having an emergency meeting while normally the Oreka was two weeks away? This was serious.

It was already evening and it became livelier in the castle, all kinds of preparations were made. For the first time in almost a century Lord Rahziel was going to attend the Oreka. And it was also  going to take place in our castle instead of in Nihâye, the center of all the dimensions in our constellation.

The skies coloured in all sorts of warm colours blended in together as I was waiting for the stars to show up. The three moons  were already lined up in the sky giving a faint light as the sky became orange and pink as the sun set.

A sudden knock on my door woke me up from my never ending thoughts.

“My Lady its time” said Maya while letting herself in the room.  She walked towards where I was standing on the balcony.

“Your view really is the best in the castle Aelliana” Said Maya while looking at the sunset and the thousands of different shades reflecting on the water.

“I know you’re worried. But don’t be, lets get you dressed. Your mother wants you there with her.” Said Maya, and she put a hand on my shoulder while looking me in the eyes with her hazel eyes.

Maya had given me one of the battle suits to wear, atleast they were more comfortable then a dress. Attending the Oreka the Echluëden dressed with prestige, she had to look powerful and unbeatable. Mother said that the reason for this was because all kinds of powerful creatures attended the Oreka and it was of utmost importance to impress. Normally the heir doesn’t attend the Oreka, but this time mother wanted me there. And that made me  more nervous, at least I was going to see Lord Rahziel again. So it couldn’t be that bad right?

I had pulled my hair in a pony tail and gathered my confidence while looking at my reflection in the mirror. Ok, breathe. You are the heir, don’t get intimidated whatever happens – I repeated this a couple of times as I walked into the main hall where mother was waiting for me.

“Make sure that security is main priority, I want an eye in every corner. ” said mother to Ira.

“Yes my Lady.” Said Ira. She was a strong being but wasn’t much of a talker, everything she said was monotone. Her daughter Maya was the opposite. She was lively and more cheerful, I guess she has it from her fathers side.

Mother saw me walking in and started analyzing me from head to toe.

“It suits you. You have the charisma of your father.” She said with a faint smile.

A sudden pain stung my chest, I missed him. I had the long blonde hair and feminine features from my mother but I had the eyes of my father, golden green. Mother would always say that these eyes radiate a certain power but not power as if ruling over the worlds but the kind of power that ruled the hearts.  After father passed away she struggled with looking me in the eyes for a year. That’s when mother changed.

“Aelliana tonight I want you to come with me to the Oreka, the Counsels have also requested your attendance. Certain things will be discussed that you might not understand. I will explain it to you by Ara if you have any questions. Please don’t interrupt, you are not supposed to talk, don’t forget that! It is possible that some are going to provoke you but don’t go in. When entering some will bow to you some will not, don’t waver and look in front of you. You are just as I am the heir to the Areandria bloodline, a noble and chosen bloodline that is more powerful then any other bloodline that exists, keep that in mind. The most powerful of every dimension will be there, some are followers of the light and some are not. You will notice whom allegiance lies where, with us or with Lord Rahziel.”

Night had already fallen and the gates pulled open for the ones who came by flying and other transportation like carriages, horses, some kind of vehicles with an engine, by portals and so on… One by one they were welcomed by our kind and guided into the castle. Mother and I stood on the first floor looking down onto the main hall which became more vibrant every second that passed by.

“The counsels will arrive any second, they will be the ones to invite everyone into the Oreka.” said mother.

A sudden portal opened at the center of the main hall. Everyone stepped aside as they watched two people with long cloaks and robes walk in followed by two creatures with four feathery wings in long dresses. And lastly one creature with thirteen tails wearing a mask walked in behind them. So these were the Counsels, I never saw them in person. They weren’t like anything I saw in all the dimensions I had visited. Mother told me they were representatives of the Creator. I guess its true, they looked divine.



So I have started to watch a new anime…

I’ve never seen such majestic animation in my life! – me every time watching a new sports anime.

How is it that certain anime can make me you feel so foolishly happy and a wimp at the same time. Like making you feel so ordinary.

When I watched Free! last year I wanted to be a swimmer (and wanted a six-pack).

When I watched  Koruko no Basket the year before, I wanted to be a basketball player(and a six pack).

Now I watch Yuri! on ice and I want to be a figure skater (and also want a six pack).

Too bad I have zero talent in gymnastics or sports in general. But every single time I watch a sports anime it makes me want to go outside and lose weight, sigh. I should probably stop watching this, but its so flippin good. Maybe I am just watching it for the six packs (or Victor), don’t know.

Ugh, sometimes I am such a paradox…





“I worry there is something broken in our generation,

there are too many sad eyes on happy faces.”

― Atticus Poetry, Love Her Wild: Poems


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Chapter 7: Hidden figures

This is not supposed to happen, not with her… If this continues it will surely end in chaos. I walked in circles in my office for the past 48 hours. Trying to cool my head ever since the gathering. After they left it didn’t took me long to calm everyone down. Except for the warm-ones, they became restless and  some of them uncontrollable which I had to eliminate two of them. Anyway it set a good example for the rest. But things will be different from now on, I can feel it. They have tasted a fraction of her scent. It will take a while for everyone to forget.

Because they were ready, to hunt I saw it in their eyes.  Everyone knows the Areandria bloodline is precious. One drop of their blood extends the lifeline for centuries, let alone the tremendous power it comes with. That is why they cover up their skin to not tempt others with their perfume, not everyone is able to resist.

A tall slender man came into the office and gave a little bow.

“My Lord, your guests have arrived.” he said.

His name was Adrian. His family served this castle for decades, a loyal friend and servant. My only companion in this large castle.

“Thank you Adrian, guide them to the conference room, I will be there in a moment.”

I went inside my bedroom and changed. Her perfume still lingered on my clothing. For me its the most beautiful scent ever, but it doesn’t drive me crazy like everyone else. It’s  different, we are creatures of equal but also opposite power. Surely her blood would kill me.

I walked into the conference room and saw Lord Arvian and Lord Khan standing up out of respect to greet me with a bow.

“Gentleman please sit down.”

“Lord Rahziel, we came as soon as possible. Please excuse us if we have let you wait too long” Said Lord Arvien while exchanging eye contact with lord Khan.

“We have something urgent to report” Said Lord Khan.

I could sense something was off. This wasn’t how this conversation  supposed to begin.

“I am listening” I said.

“My Lord, you gave me an order to take care of the matters with the levels. But it seems that they have grown in numbers. For the last month especially and aren’t decreasing whatever we do.” Said Lord Arvien anxiously.

“It seems that they are under orders of someone. Someone who summons them and turn them against us.” Said Lord Khan. He was twitching his fingers. I could tell he was nervous and afraid.

“Do you know who?” I asked, I already had my assumptions but maybe I’m wrong. I hope I am.

“My Lord, we aren’t certain. Especially because this person died centuries ago, but witnesses say they saw himsay. Its…” Said Lord Arvien trembling.

“We think it’s Xian of Velor.” Said Lord Khan.

I wasn’t wrong. If it is really him, it will change the course of everything. Someone must have resurrect the bastard, someone with ancient transcriptions. But such transcriptions are only in possession of the Counsel’s, how did they manage to get their hands on them.  I will have to discuss this with the Counsels as soon as possible. I watched him die 450 years ago by the Echluëden. And I will see him die again! No mistakes this time.


Our losses: between two and eight martyrs each day.
And ten wounded.
And twenty homes.
And fifty olive trees…
Added to this the structural flaw that
Will arrive at the poem, the play, and the unfinished canvas.

A woman told the cloud: cover my beloved
For my clothing is drenched with his blood.


-Mahmoud Darwish 


My heart bleeds for Syria…

New product review

Pep-Start HydroBlur Moisturizer – 30 ml,  prijs: 17,90 euro bij ICI Paris XL. 

Ik heb mij dit product aangeschaft na ik maandenlang de trend van “Blurring sticks and balms” overal op het internet tegenkom. Het was een random koopje. Waarom? Omdat het beloofd rode vlekken en imperfecties te vervagen en het perfect is voor een ‘no make-up day’. Na dit te lezen was ik benieuwd of het wel degelijk zou werken. If it does, dan byebye to my BB-cream.

Beschrijving van het product:

Deze vernieuwende formule geeft een vochtboost met matte finish en de power van de NIEUWE HydroBlur techniek. Fijne lijntjes, rimpeltjes en vlekjes worden verdoezelt, de huid wordt fluweelachtig zacht. Draag solo voor een mooie, flawless no make-up look of als een make-up primer die de huid glad maakt voor een foundation of poeder.

Het pakje arriveerde vorige week woensdag en heb het sindsdien elke dag  gebruikt. Bij eerste gebruik merkte ik al een beetje van het vervagende effect maar het duurde niet lang of het effect was al na 10-20 minuten weer weg. Dat was een teleurstellende eerste indruk. Ik heb het product achteraf gebruikt met make-up en hoefde geen primer te gebruiken het werkte goed met mijn foundation en gaf me een “dewy-look” dus geen matte finish. Indien je een matterende foundation of poeder gebruikt zal het wel een matte finish geven.

Het product is verpakt in een potje, je doet het telkens open en dicht dus het komt in contact met lucht/zuurstof en licht. Na wat opzoekwerk naar de ingrediënten die plantaardige extracten en antioxidanten bevatten, heb ik gelezen dat indien deze ingrediënten in zulke producten blootgesteld worden aan zuurstof en licht  het zijn effectiviteit verliest. Dus het wordt aangeraden om het in een fles/flacon met een pompje te gebruiken. Zoals  het geval is bij de meeste anti-aging oogcontour crèmes en gels. De formule heeft een roos- achtige kleur en heeft een dikke haarbalsem- achtige structuur.  Na één laag zie je het effect al een beetje maar indien je meer dan een laag op je huid smeert zie je het effect beter maar je ziet een soort film-achtige structuur zitten op je huid. Het product bevat anti-aging ingrediënten en is geurvrij en olie-vrij. Je huid voelt gehydrateerd aan  en is helemaal  niet plakkerig wat een pluspunt is.

Na gebruik van ongeveer een week heb ik besloten om het niet meer te gebruiken. De formule van het product voelde niet prettig aan op mijn huid en de effectiviteit van het ‘blurring-effect’ is niet overtuigend genoeg voor mij.  Ik ben uiteindelijk teruggekeerd naar mijn vertrouwde moisturizer.

Enerzijds voor iemand die grotere of meer poriën heeft denk ik wel dat dit product beter zou werken. Indien je opzoek bent naar een doeltreffende hydraterende primer denk ik wel dat dit een goedkopere optie kan zijn. Verder wil ik erop wijzen dat ik niet weet of het product beter zou werken voor iemand met een vettigere huidtype aangezien ik een droge tot een gecombineerde huidmensje ben.

My final thoughts:

Ik denk wel dat je de nodige effectiviteit krijgt voor de prijs die je betaald. Het is hypoallergeen, olie-vrij en geurvrij wat grote pluspunten zijn voor iemand met een gevoelige huid. Het hydrateert de huid voldoende en geeft toch een ‘blurry-effect’ ook al is het kort van duur. Een nadeel is toch dat het product in een potje zit en wetenschappelijk* gezien niet optimaal is voor de ingrediënten die op lange termijn zijn effectiviteit zullen verliezen.

Pharmacology Review, July 2013, issue 14, pages 97-10 en Journal of Biophotonics, January 2010, pages 82-88, – laatst geraadpleegd op 1/04/2017.
Indien je niet zeker weet welk huidtype je hebt, kan je deze link raadplegen voor meer informatie.

Legion: an ultimate mind-F

I started to watch a new television series and I must say that I am very impressed. It’s called Legion, and its based on the X-Men comics.  When I watched the first episode I was really confused figuring out in which time period it took place, but trough-out the next episodes it becomes more and more clear that its a mix of 1960s with modern-day elements. You see a lot of things and hear a lot of things from the main character’s distorted view of reality. Its as if you’re with him inside his head, experiencing everything. It also becomes clear that the world isn’t aware of having mutants in its midst so that takes everything to a whole other level.

The series is about a man called David Haller who is diagnosed with with schizophrenia at a young age and has been a patient in various psychiatric hospitals since. But we also see that he was having a normal life with a girlfriend at some point and from then on we see that everything went horribly wrong. We see him dealing with the voices in his head, his anxiety, his addiction and his struggle with his past. We are thrown into this psychedelic world and having all these unanswered questions that makes it so addicting to watch.

It surprised me when I found out that it was based on the world of the X-men. Because at first glance you would think that it wouldn’t fit at all in the genre. If you’re familiair with those type of movies or series you will know what I am talking about. Well this is a lot different and it’s really refreshing. It is an ‘out of the box’ way of thinking and we get to see how messed up everything is. Its definitely not like ‘Yeah I am awesome, I have superpowers and I am gonna save the world from evil’ – type of thing. Its a lot more realistic and in depth then that. We also get to see the struggles of him having a relationship with another mutant girl which he isn’t allowed to touch because of her powers.

“We are having a romance of the mind” – David Haller.

Another aspect that I haven’t figured out yet is the fact that David is supposed to be Charles Xaviers son but we see in the series that his father is an astronomer? Besides we already know it sets in a pre- X men period. I hope this gets clarified in the coming episodes. I have so many questions unanswered.

I know that their is a second season planned, so I am stoked to know more!

PS: If you want some more in depth information then you can watch this video. I know that it helped me a lot! 🙂

Daily Life

Hallo internetmensjes

Vandaag wil ik het hebben over hoe mijn zicht op cosmetica en gezichtsverzorging is veranderd door de jaren heen. Tot voor kort dacht ik dat beauty products niet nodig waren in mijn leven en dat moeder natuur wel haar ding zou doen. Boy I was wrong!

Ik gebruikte enkel zeep om mijn gezicht te wassen waardoor mijn huid enorm droog werd. Op 17 jarige leeftijd verloor ik de elasticiteit van mijn huid. Met als gevolg dat ik op zoek ging naar alternatieven om mijn huid te hydrateren. Wanneer ik ging zoeken in de winkels- voornamelijk Kruidvat omdat ik  nog student was met een beetje zakgeld op zak, probeerde ik een zo natuurlijk mogelijk product te zoeken. Mijn logica was dat je iets droog moest bestrijden met iets vloeibaar, huidolie. Alle soorten olie die je  maar kunt bedenken, amandelolie, olijfolie, bio-olie,… Smeer er maar op los.

Worst break-out of my life! Ja kan je al voorstellen, dag en nacht smeerde ik me in met olie, na eens grondig mijn gezicht met zeep te wassen natuurlijk. De zeep was nog altijd een fundamenteel deel van mijn reinigingsritueel. Zoals mijn vader zei, zeep is life zeep is love. Ik kreeg met als gevolg soort van boebeltjes op mijn huid . Ik had een reliëf op mijn gezicht, wat ik later  ‘de Alpen’ van mijn voorhoofd noemde. Wanneer ik mijn vingers over mijn huid gleed voelde het enorm onaangenaam en vettig aan. Het was een ramp.

Na maandenlang elke dag hetzelfde ritueel te volgen ging ik eens op Google kijken wat ik eigenlijk verkeerd deed. It turns out I did everything wrong! Eerst en vooral stopte ik met het gebruik van zeep op mijn gezicht, ik kocht me een reiniging gel van Vichy in de apotheek van 400 ml voor 15 euro. En een klein potje klassieke Nivea in het Kruidvat van 3 euro. Deze producten gingen mee voor hoogstens een jaar. Jarenlang heb ik me hier aan gehouden tot ik afstudeerde van het middelbaar. Guess what, mijn boebeltjes verdwenen geleidelijk aan. Maar had nog altijd problemen zoals puistjes op regelmatige basis en een vettige voorhoofd.

Ik dacht dat het de hormonen waren maar heb erna ondervonden dat een dagcrème afgestemd op je huidtype wonderen kan doen. Dus de lessen die mijn ervaring me hebben geleerd is: KNOW YOUR SKIN TYPE! Door eindeloos te zoeken in de literatuur en wetenschap heb ik uiteindelijk ondervonden welke producten en ingrediënten passen voor mijn huidtype. Turns out, dat mijn huid een droog kindje is met een gecombineerde t-zone.

Ik zal topics zoals huid verzorging – en producten bespreken in deze categorie. Verder zal ik ook de make-up die ik gebruik ook bespreken. See you next time! 🙂